v ♥ r i e t y

★ A Clean Slate

Today has been a fight or flight situation for me

I woke up a nervous wreck

I met someone new today

And I've never done it before.

One of My First

Worth putting here.

Not gonna share the details

I hope I'll remember even when I don't write it up

I have the tendencies to forget things these days

Thats what happen when you grow old and done a lot of thinking.

All I should remember is that he is nice.

I started to feel that I need a place to vent my feelings

Somewhere to write

A place where no one care but still can lift up my struggle (a bit)

Working is not as fun as I imagined

Suddenly all the stresses during my student years are not as relevant as my current work stress

I was so eager to work cause I want the money

Now when you have money, they come with great responsibilities

And it takes away all the fun in money

I am working 44 hours per week

Soon will be 48 hours/w starting on November

It was in my new LOA

(comes with increment of course)

For now my schedule is;

Off on Sundays & Mondays

2 PM - 945 PM, Tue-Wed

9 AM - 4 PM, Thu

9 AM - 930 PM, Fri-Sat

I am constantly tired

Probably because of the working shift and the workload and the customers who thinks they are always right

I am thankful that I have a job

And it pays well Alhamdulillah considering my age & whatnot with the economic state we are living in rn

But I am sometimes not happy and unsatisfied

and tired of course

Just imagine working 12 hours for two consecutive days

When I told people I newly met that I work in retail

Most people look down on me

But boy they have no idea how busy this job keeps me

We have an average of 500+ of customers per day

I have to do stock-keeping, ordering & merchandising

I don't know how long I can last

How long I can hold myself together

For now I'm just gonna be thankful and look at the bright side

I'm starting with a clean slate.

With good vibes.

With new page here

Monday, September 17 8:00 PM

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Safyy, Safyani
26 ♥
Pharmacist.